Tag: mythology

  • 🖤 Between the Lines #12: Song of the Sirens

    There are some things you know are bad for you before you ever touch them.

    That doesn’t always stop you from wanting them.

    I think we like to imagine that once we’ve learned a lesson, we become immune to repeating it.

    Once you know what a red flag looks like, you’ll never walk toward one again.

    Once you’ve survived the fire, surely you’ll recognize the heat next time.

    Except people don’t really work like that.

    Sometimes you know exactly what something is—

    and it still sounds beautiful.

    That’s where this poem came from.

    Not from being unable to recognize danger.

    From recognizing it perfectly and having to decide whether you’re going to listen anyway.

    This is Song of the Sirens.


    Song of the Sirens

    He smiled like sin itself,
    and I forgot how to pray.

    Not because I stopped believing.

    Because some songs
    are louder than faith.

    They never tell you
    the Sirens don’t force anyone.

    They simply sing.

    The rest
    is a decision.

    I saw the rocks.

    I knew the stories.

    I knew how endings like this
    always ended.

    Bodies drifting.

    Dreams swallowed whole.

    Women like me
    mistaking hunger
    for destiny.

    Still—

    I stepped closer.

    There is something terrifying
    about wanting the thing
    you already know
    will undo you.

    Not because you’re foolish.

    Because loneliness
    has a remarkable way
    of making shipwrecks
    look like shorelines.

    His smile carried the same promise
    the sea always has.

    Come closer.

    You’ll finally understand.

    You won’t feel alone here.

    I almost believed him.

    Almost mistook
    being desired
    for being seen.

    Almost confused
    chemistry
    with safety.

    He smiled like sin itself,
    and somewhere in the distance
    the Sirens started singing.

    Not with voices.

    With possibility.

    With every version of my life
    that might have existed
    if I had ignored
    what my heart already knew.

    People think temptation
    looks like certainty.

    It doesn’t.

    It looks like curiosity.

    One more conversation.

    One more touch.

    One more reason
    to believe this time
    will be different.

    The ocean never asks
    for all of you at once.

    It takes you
    one step at a time.

    I stood at the water’s edge
    long enough
    to hear the music.

    Long enough
    to understand
    why sailors kept turning the ship.

    Long enough
    to know
    I wasn’t immune.

    Then I remembered—

    love had already taught me
    the difference
    between a lighthouse
    and a fire.

    One guides you home.

    The other only looks beautiful
    from far away.

    So I walked away.

    Not because the song stopped.

    It didn’t.

    I walked away
    because I finally understood

    that surviving

    sometimes sounds like

    leaving the music

    unfinished.


    Between the Lines

    This poem uses Sirens, but it isn’t really about Sirens.

    There’s no monster waiting on the rocks.

    No sailor tied to a mast.

    No literal song floating across the ocean.

    The Siren in this poem is possibility.

    It’s that dangerous little voice that asks:

    But what if?

    What if this one is different?

    What if I’m reading it wrong?

    What if I just stay a little longer?

    What if the thing that hurt me before could somehow become the thing that heals me now?

    And sometimes that question is enough to make us move closer to something we already know we should be walking away from.


    “They simply sing. The rest is a decision.”

    I really wanted this line in the poem because I didn’t want temptation to become something that happened to her.

    The Sirens aren’t dragging her into the ocean.

    She sees the rocks.

    She knows the stories.

    She understands exactly what could happen.

    And she still takes a step.

    That distinction matters.

    Because sometimes we talk about destructive patterns like we somehow lose all agency the second temptation appears.

    But there’s usually a space between hearing the song and reaching the rocks.

    Sometimes it’s tiny.

    Sometimes it’s painful.

    But it’s there.

    And that’s where the decision lives.


    “Loneliness has a remarkable way of making shipwrecks look like shorelines.”

    This is probably the line that sits closest to the center of the poem for me.

    Because loneliness changes perspective.

    Something doesn’t necessarily become safer just because you’re lonely.

    It can just start looking safer.

    Attention feels more meaningful.

    Chemistry feels more important.

    Being wanted starts feeling suspiciously similar to being understood.

    And suddenly something you would have recognized immediately from a distance begins looking like somewhere you could rest.

    That’s why the next lines matter too:

    Almost mistook
    being desired
    for being seen.

    Almost confused
    chemistry
    with safety.

    Those things are not interchangeable.

    Someone can want you without knowing you.

    You can have incredible chemistry with somebody who is terrible for you.

    Something can feel intense without being healthy.

    And sometimes learning that difference is expensive.


    Temptation doesn’t usually arrive screaming.

    I think we picture bad decisions as these huge dramatic moments.

    You stand at a crossroads.

    One path says GOOD IDEA.

    The other says THIS WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE.

    Then you knowingly choose disaster.

    😂

    Usually it’s much quieter than that.

    One more conversation.

    One more touch.

    One more reason
    to believe this time
    will be different.

    That’s how people end up farther into something than they ever planned to go.

    The ocean doesn’t ask for all of you at once.

    One step.

    Then another.

    Then another.

    Eventually you look behind you and realize the shoreline is much farther away than you thought.

    That part of the poem isn’t really about one person.

    It’s about patterns.

    The ways we negotiate with ourselves when we want something badly enough.

    The tiny permissions that become much bigger decisions.


    “I wasn’t immune.”

    I really like that she doesn’t walk away because she becomes stronger than the song.

    She doesn’t suddenly stop wanting it.

    She doesn’t stand at the water and think:

    Wow. I can’t believe I ever considered that.

    She understands why sailors turned their ships.

    She understands exactly why someone would keep listening.

    And she realizes she could too.

    There’s something more honest to me about that than pretending growth means temptation stops working.

    Sometimes growth is knowing:

    This could still get me.

    And making a different decision anyway.


    The lighthouse and the fire.

    love had already taught me
    the difference
    between a lighthouse
    and a fire.

    One guides you home.

    The other only looks beautiful
    from far away.

    This is the moment where the poem changes.

    Up until then, she is measuring the danger against desire.

    Then she remembers she has something else to compare it to.

    Not fantasy.

    Not possibility.

    Experience.

    She knows what it feels like when love is safe.

    And once you know that, intensity stops being quite as convincing.

    A fire can be beautiful.

    Warm.

    Mesmerizing.

    You can stare at it forever.

    That doesn’t mean you should walk into it.

    A lighthouse doesn’t ask you to burn.

    It helps you find your way home.


    Leaving the Music Unfinished

    The ending matters to me because the song never stops.

    I didn’t want it to.

    If the Sirens suddenly went silent, walking away wouldn’t mean very much.

    Of course she leaves if she no longer wants to stay.

    That isn’t the difficult choice.

    She leaves while she can still hear them.

    While possibility still exists.

    While some part of her still wonders what would happen if she took one more step.

    There’s no neat ending.

    No final conversation.

    No satisfying answer to every what if.

    She doesn’t stay long enough to learn how the story would have ended.

    And that’s the point.

    Sometimes we think closure means finishing something.

    Getting the answer.

    Having the conversation.

    Following it all the way through so we can finally know.

    But sometimes survival requires accepting that you are never going to know.

    Sometimes the safest ending is the one you deliberately refuse to finish.

    The song keeps playing.

    You just stop following it.

    Until next time,

    — Destiny

    P.S. Have you ever had to walk away from something even though part of you still wanted it? 🖤

  • Between the Lines #10: The Siren Who Could Not Sing

    There are some poems that start with an idea.

    And then there are some that quietly become about something much bigger while you’re writing them.

    The Siren Who Could Not Sing started with a simple question:

    What happens to a siren who can’t sing?

    Not one whose voice was stolen.

    Not one who eventually discovers some hidden, magical song.

    Just—

    a siren who cannot do the one thing everyone says a siren is supposed to do.

    And the more I sat with that idea, the less this poem became about sirens.

    Because I think a lot of us know what it feels like to live inside an expectation we were never able to meet.


    The Siren Who Could Not Sing

    They knew something was wrong
    the first time I opened my mouth
    and the sea stayed still.

    No sailors turned their heads.

    No ships changed course.

    No man forgot
    the name of the woman
    waiting for him at home.

    Nothing happened.

    My sisters sang
    and entire oceans
    leaned closer.

    I sang—

    and heard only
    the small, broken sound
    of breath.

    A siren
    without a voice.

    There are cruelties
    even mythology
    doesn’t prepare you for.

    To be born
    with a name
    that promises something

    your body
    cannot give.

    They tried to teach me.

    Again.

    Again.

    Breathe deeper.

    Try harder.

    You aren’t trying.

    As though effort
    could grow music
    inside a throat
    that had never learned
    how to hold it.

    Eventually,

    they stopped asking me
    to sing with them.

    That hurt more.

    I would sit
    on the rocks
    and watch my sisters

    become everything
    we were created to be.

    Beautiful.

    Terrible.

    Unavoidable.

    Their songs
    crossed miles of water.

    Mine couldn’t cross
    my own lips.

    So I became useful
    in other ways.

    I watched the horizon.

    Counted ships.

    Collected what the ocean
    returned.

    Learned the names
    of constellations
    because stars
    never asked me
    to perform.

    Still,

    I hated them sometimes.

    My sisters.

    Not because
    they could sing.

    Because they never had
    to wonder

    who they would be
    if they couldn’t.

    Do you know
    what it does to you

    to lose something
    everyone insists
    is the reason
    you exist?

    You start believing
    absence
    is the same thing
    as failure.

    You start introducing yourself
    with an apology.

    You start thinking

    almost

    is another word
    for worthless.

    Then one night,

    a ship broke apart
    against the rocks.

    There had been no song.

    No seduction.

    Only a storm
    with no interest
    in who deserved
    to survive it.

    A sailor washed ashore.

    Alive.

    Barely.

    He looked at me
    and begged,

    “Please.”

    I opened my mouth.

    Nothing.

    Of course.

    So I didn’t sing.

    I pulled him
    from the water.

    Stayed beside him
    until morning.

    And when he woke,

    he didn’t ask
    why I had no song.

    He didn’t ask
    what kind of siren
    couldn’t lure a man
    to his death.

    He only said,

    “You saved me.”

    I had never heard
    those words before.

    All my life,

    I had been taught
    that a siren’s power

    was measured
    by how many people
    she could make
    follow her voice.

    No one ever told me

    there might be power
    in refusing
    to let someone drown.

    My sisters still sing.

    The sea still listens.

    Ships still tremble
    when their voices
    cross the water.

    And me?

    I am still silent.

    Some things
    do not grow back
    just because
    we finally understand
    their absence.

    But I no longer
    open my mouth
    and wait for music

    to prove
    I belong here.

    I am a siren.

    Not despite
    the silence.

    Not because of it.

    I simply am.

    And perhaps
    the cruelest thing
    they ever taught me

    was that the thing
    I was missing

    was the thing

    that made me

    whole.


    The part of this poem that sits heaviest with me isn’t actually the silence.

    It’s this:

    You aren’t trying.

    Because how many times do we say some version of that to people?

    Try harder.

    Push yourself.

    Everybody else can do it.

    You just need to practice.

    You just need to want it badly enough.

    As though effort is some magical currency we can exchange for ability.

    As though wanting something badly enough guarantees our bodies, our minds, or our circumstances will cooperate.

    Sometimes they don’t.

    And sometimes the cruelest thing you can do to someone who is already struggling is convince them that their inability is proof they didn’t try hard enough.

    The siren spends years believing there must be something wrong with her because everyone around her possesses the thing she is missing.

    Her sisters don’t even have to think about singing.

    They simply open their mouths—

    and the world responds.

    Meanwhile, she keeps trying to become something that was never going to happen.

    And I think comparison hurts the most when you’re comparing yourself to people who have never had to question the thing you’re fighting so hard to become.

    They don’t know what it feels like to sit on the rocks and watch.

    They don’t know what it feels like to be almost what everyone expected.

    They don’t have to wonder:

    Who am I if I can’t do the thing everyone says makes me who I am?

    That question is the real heart of this poem.

    Because we attach identity to things constantly.

    A good mother does this.

    A successful person looks like this.

    A strong person handles things this way.

    A woman should be this.

    A man should provide that.

    A writer should write like this.

    A body should be able to do that.

    And when we don’t fit whatever definition we were handed?

    We start shrinking ourselves around the missing piece.

    We introduce ourselves with an apology.

    We explain ourselves before anyone even asks.

    We start treating different like it means defective.

    That’s why I didn’t want her voice to magically appear at the end.

    I could have done that.

    The sailor could have awakened, she could have opened her mouth, and suddenly some beautiful song could have poured out.

    It would have been neat.

    Hopeful.

    Very fairy-tale.

    And I would have hated it.

    Because then the poem would still be saying she needed the song.

    She would simply have suffered long enough to finally earn it.

    No.

    She never sings.

    The thing she cannot do at the beginning is still something she cannot do at the end.

    Because sometimes healing doesn’t give you back what you lost.

    Sometimes acceptance doesn’t fix anything.

    Sometimes understanding yourself better does not magically change the thing you had to learn to live without.

    And you are still allowed to be whole.

    That’s why this part matters so much to me:

    I am a siren.

    Not despite
the silence.

    Not because of it.

    I simply am.

    Not despite.

    Because even that can become another kind of cage.

    Look how successful she became despite this.

    Look how strong she is despite that.

    Look what she accomplished even though she is missing something.

    Sometimes I think we become so obsessed with turning every difference into an inspirational story that we accidentally keep reinforcing the idea that there was something wrong with the person to begin with.

    She doesn’t need to become extraordinary because she cannot sing.

    She doesn’t need her silence to become a superpower.

    She doesn’t need to prove that losing one thing gave her something better.

    She is simply a siren.

    Full stop.

    And then there’s the sailor.

    All her life, she has been told that a siren’s power is measured by destruction.

    How many sailors turn their ships.

    How many men follow the voice.

    How many bodies the ocean takes.

    Then someone finally looks at her and says:

    You saved me.

    And suddenly the definition of power changes.

    Maybe the thing everyone around you values isn’t actually the thing that deserves to be valued.

    Maybe being good at what your world rewards doesn’t automatically make that thing good.

    Maybe you can spend your entire life believing you failed a test without ever stopping to ask:

    Who wrote the test?

    Our silent siren cannot lure sailors toward the rocks.

    But when one reaches them anyway—

    she pulls him out.

    And for the first time, she understands that she was measuring herself with a ruler she never chose.

    That might be my favorite thing hiding between these lines.

    She doesn’t finally become the siren everyone expected.

    She stops needing to.

    And I think there is an enormous difference between the two.

    Maybe becoming whole isn’t always about finding the missing piece.

    Maybe sometimes it’s realizing you were never a collection of missing pieces in the first place.

    Until next time,

    —Destiny

    P.S. Have you ever spent so much time trying to become who you thought you were supposed to be that you forgot to ask who you actually were?

  • Between the Lines #1

    I wrote this before this blog ever existed.

    It was tucked away in one of my notebooks, waiting for the right place to live.

    I think it found that place here.

    Scars

    The gods always asked

    for sacrifices.

    Some were given lambs.

    Some were given daughters.

    I was given myself.

    No temple stood above me,

    no choir sang my name,

    yet something holy

    was taken all the same.

    Every pale line

    is another language

    my body learned

    instead of peace.

    The ones across my legs

    look like rivers

    on an old map—

    proof that even broken things

    search for somewhere

    to belong.

    People ask

    if I regret them.

    As if regret

    could erase history.

    As if skin

    ever forgets

    the knife,

    the fingernails,

    the hands that held too tightly,

    the nights that stole

    more than sleep.

    My skin is carved with scars

    that someone else earned.

    Not mine.

    Mine was only the body

    left behind

    after their hands,

    their words,

    their silence

    had already decided

    what would become of it.

    My skin was never sacred.

    It was only the altar.

    They called it survival.

    The gods

    would have called it

    an offering.

    Maybe that’s why

    I no longer pray

    for smooth skin.

    I pray instead

    for gentler hands,

    for quieter nights,

    for a body

    that no longer mistakes

    silence

    for safety.

    If the gods ever come looking

    for the pieces

    they abandoned,

    they’ll find them here—

    written beneath my skin,

    where every scar

    became a sentence,

    every sentence

    became a story,

    and somewhere along the way,

    I stopped being

    the sacrifice.

    I became

    the monument.

    Until next time,

    — Destiny

    P.S. Which line stayed with you the longest?